2003-03-25 . 4:42 p.m.
More than anything at this time I want to be with the woman I love, yet Fate seems to be taking a perverse interest in fucking me over.
It's not much to ask I'm sure. Really. I would just like to be fulfilled, to be complete and this woman makes me feel that way. I want her to be with me, but with so much happening with my world at the moment it seems so hard, almost too hard to acheive this.
I want nothing more than to lounge around with her. To just sit next to each other, my arm around her shoulder. To kiss her, to just be with her. The wise amongst you may have seen how little updating I have done over the last month or so. The reason being is that I have spent virtually all of my online time speaking to her.
Money seems to be the main concern - the problem of being 5000 miles away is easily distilled into this one issue. It costs an awful lot to get somebody from across the globe to you. It won't stop me though. Nothing can. Nothing will.
Each day that passes brings us closer together but each day carries a weight with it. It seems that the time passes so slowly but I know that at the end of all this I will finally be one of those annoyingly happy people walking around with a permanent grin chiselled into my face.
Enough whining. I've got plans to make.
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